Random Thoughts

I saw a really cool artist the other day and I figured I'd share it here. He was a man using a wheelchair to draw a picture of a wheelchair. I don't think the man had a disability. The chair was a poor fit for his long frame and it was not the sort of chair that wheelchair users typically have. It was the type you see in hospitals or rental stores with the aqua colored seat and back. Anyway, the young man had a piece of charcoal taped to a dowel and he had taped a large sheet of white butcher paper to the ground. Rather than using his arms and wrists to draw the picture, he was holding his arm stationary and making the lines by maneuvering the wheels of the chair. I stood watching for several minutes as I found it fascinating. We never spoke, he only looked up once and we exchanged smiles. Whoever the project was for, I hope it was well received...

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I'm having a hard time figuring out how to say "no" gracefully when unwanted suitors contact me. Like most people, I'm simply not attracted to every guy who emails or messages me. The difference is that since I'm a dev many men seem to think I'm somehow obligated to like them and if I don't I'm some kind of bigot. Some have even made the outrageous suggestion that I should start some kind of service as if whoring myself out to the highest disabled bidder should be my life's work.

The people who are unkind are easy to send off with a good piece of my mind. It's the nice guys who are just looking for love the same as I am that are tough. Sometimes "You seem like a really nice guy but you're just not the one for me." isn't enough to convey a message that a lonely heart doesn't really want to hear. I think I'll probably always struggle with this one...

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I was talking about weekend plans with a friend at work today and she mentioned that she was going on a romantic getaway with her husband. That made me pretty wistful. I'd love to have someone to go on romantic getaways with... ah well the search continues!